Long gone is the careless freedom of summer. It's replaced with shorter days, chilly breezes and the season of holiday traditions and football.
I love Fall. At least, I have in the past. But as the days shorten and the holidays near I am more aware of feelings of loneliness and being "trapped in by the darkness" than I have been in a long time.
It all comes down to the three "F's": 1. Family 2. Familiarity 3. Friends
I just want to be "home." It's funny because I never thought I would consider Spokane "home" right alongside Utah. It's not that I don't like the Tri-Cities. We have made some friends and met some really AWESOME people here but....I just not the same.....(yet).
At Women's Conference I looked around and saw very few familiar faces knowing that my Mom and sisters were back home sitting together and enjoying one another's company. I sat alone in the back. I can't remember the last time I felt so lonely. What a bummer. (I was very grateful to see and chat with a few girls in my ward afterwards....it lightened my mood considerably.)
Given time I'm sure I will "get into the groove" and feel better about my lonely circumstances.
But for now....
I just want to be "where everybody knows [my] name." That's not too much to ask, is it?
Thursday, October 1, 2009
What do you say when you have nothing to say.......................