Long gone is the careless freedom of summer. It's replaced with shorter days, chilly breezes and the season of holiday traditions and football.
I love Fall. At least, I have in the past. But as the days shorten and the holidays near I am more aware of feelings of loneliness and being "trapped in by the darkness" than I have been in a long time.
It all comes down to the three "F's":
1. Family
2. Familiarity
3. Friends
I just want to be "home." It's funny because I never thought I would consider Spokane "home" right alongside Utah. It's not that I don't like the Tri-Cities. We have made some friends and met some really AWESOME people here but....I just not the same.....(yet).
At Women's Conference I looked around and saw very few familiar faces knowing that my Mom and sisters were back home sitting together and enjoying one another's company. I sat alone in the back. I can't remember the last time I felt so lonely. What a bummer. (I was very grateful to see and chat with a few girls in my ward afterwards....it lightened my mood considerably.)
Given time I'm sure I will "get into the groove" and feel better about my lonely circumstances.
But for now....
I just want to be "where everybody knows [my] name." That's not too much to ask, is it?
I love Fall. At least, I have in the past. But as the days shorten and the holidays near I am more aware of feelings of loneliness and being "trapped in by the darkness" than I have been in a long time.
It all comes down to the three "F's":
1. Family
2. Familiarity
3. Friends
I just want to be "home." It's funny because I never thought I would consider Spokane "home" right alongside Utah. It's not that I don't like the Tri-Cities. We have made some friends and met some really AWESOME people here but....I just not the same.....(yet).
At Women's Conference I looked around and saw very few familiar faces knowing that my Mom and sisters were back home sitting together and enjoying one another's company. I sat alone in the back. I can't remember the last time I felt so lonely. What a bummer. (I was very grateful to see and chat with a few girls in my ward afterwards....it lightened my mood considerably.)
Given time I'm sure I will "get into the groove" and feel better about my lonely circumstances.
But for now....
I just want to be "where everybody knows [my] name." That's not too much to ask, is it?
4 comments:
Ah, Mel! I miss having you around, and totally missed you at Women's Conference. I'm always so excited to see you when we get together...
Love and miss you too! I am glad you guys are coming for Thanksgiving. If it makes you feel any better, I didn't go to Women's Conference with the sisters. I'm just a teenage dirtbag, baby!
I had just had the same experience at the Priesthood session. I know what your saying Mel, it's not the funnest being away from all the fam!
Hang in there! There's a light at the end of the tunnel. :)
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