Sometimes it's hard to do what's right. I mean, when you are not doing anything that is "really bad" but know there are things you could and SHOULD change in order to become closer to God and further from the world...it can be hard. Especially when the changes are really simple things. For some reason it makes it harder.
I often see things i need to change. And by changing them, I KNOW I will be a better person and feel better about myself. But I worry what others will think. i worry that making positive changes in MY life might make others feel bad for their choices (like I might then judge them). I worry that people will see me as a "Molly Mormon" and wont want to be my friend. I worry that no one will like me. Or worse...that they will HATE me.
I know I sound like a silly school girl but I KNOW we ALL have those thoughts sometimes.
As I am working more and more on my self esteem and focussing on what Heavenly Father wants of me, I am starting to care less and less about what others think.
Well...mostly.
That's why when I came across this scripture this morning (in the still quiet of the house because Rob took the older kids to Spokane this weekend and I am at home ALONE with a SLEEPING BABY!!!!! FREEDOM!....ahem...to get back to the point)....anyway, when I came across this scripture this morning, I knew that the Lord was mindful of me and my worries and was giving me words of comfort and strength to go on ahead and make some of those changes.
3 Nephi 22 (which is actually in Isaiah 54 as well)
14: "In righteousness shalt thou be established; thou shalt be far from oppression for thou shalt not fear and from terror for it shall not come near thee."
15: ..."whosoever shall gather together against thee shall fall for thy sake."
17: "No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall revile against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord."
Now...these were promises given to Zion (and her people).
I will have to share my journey in self esteem soon. It's been quite amazing. It leaves me with a lot of....PEACE. Yep, there is no better word to describe it....just PEACE.
I am a daughter of my Heavenly Father who loves me. And that is ENOUGH. I don't have to be skinny, a perfect mom, a gourmet cook, a scrapbooker, a crafter, a business woman, a beauty, a millionaire, an accomplished writer, or any other of the thousands of things I feel I fall short on and....HE STILL LOVES ME! And I, in return, love Him and want him to be proud of me and the choices I am making.
Sometimes change IS hard, undoubtedly....but it IS doable....it IS worth it....which is all that REALLY matters (in the ETERNAL scheme of things).
...and the Lord does not leave us to do it alone.
Of this I can testify, and I do so in His name, Jesus Christ.
4 comments:
Thank you for your testimony. That is very sweet and I totally understand how you feel and what you mean. Thank you! Also....do you only have Kian this weekend? That is AWESOME! Well deserved weekend to yourself (with Kian)! How I want one of those!!!
Oh, Melanie...I love ya! You are so awesome. My brother couldn't of married a better girl! You are doing great, keep it up. You are such a good example.
I am going to miss seeing you this weekend. But how fun to be home,and somewhat alone. Ahhh, I just dream of that luxury! :)
I can't tell you how much I wonder about all of those things - being the perfect mom, super skinny, running marathons, volunteering at a soup kitchen and the PTA, 3 very healthy tasty meals from scratch every day, sewing beautiful clothes, bla bla bla. It is so hard for me at times to filter out even the Mormon culture from what Heavenly Father really says. I needed this post and I can't wait to hear more about your journey.
Your amazing Melanie! I'm so glad we know Heavenly Father's plan and can keep growing and learning throughout this life! Your a great example of how to do that! Thanks for your post :)
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